I dont get it, why do people overreact when I whip out my SIA's Sarong Kebaya printed umbrella to shield myself against the scorching heat? What's wrong with trying to protect my skin from the strong UV rays? What are you so adverse to that idea?

Just because majority of the people here don't have the habit of using umbrella, doesn't mean that I have to follow the convention too right?
Doesn't mean that it's "so auntie" to use it, or even degrading myself or more specifically my so called "image" as potrayed to the public. It's rlly bad, I do feel hurt when my friends / classmates start to go like " eee I dont know you la". Of course, it was meant as a joke. But have you ever thought about how I would feel?

It's not easy to go against the convention current. Sometimes, I would even have to tell myself, dont bother what others think of me so much repeatedly to pluck up my courage again to be myself. I hope you can accept me as an individual, with an unique and eccentric character. It's rlly hard to be a true self sometimes.

Yes, I may not be close to you because of the limited chances for interaction, but do respect my dignity, for I always do.

I find it hard to find friends that I can connect to in my school. (Dang Imiss Yuxi & Tuyan)
Asking them to hang out or to go out is as hard as getting the moon from the sky.
Besides, once a clique is formed, they hardly ever socialise with people beyond that circle.. and I think it's quite sad. Life's boring in nanyang, life sucks. Seriously. No, don;t get me wrong, i'm not wallowing in self pity, I'm merely stating the truth. I cant remember being truly happy / went crazy / super high under lss's scrutiny, the last time I remembered having fun with my classmates was my 13 th bday celebration at Escape with my class. More than 20 classmates turned up that day, and we really had lots of fun.

Okay, maybe you'll say" but you dedicate all your time to your h alrdy, no time for us lorh...."
Doesn't mean that I will be a lousy friend when i have a bf. These 2 are not entirely mutually exclusive all the time. I can be both a good friend and you know, a good wife material.

Went to HCJC's open house today, and I think fencing as a CCA is cool. One more CCA to consider. Wushu guys are hot! like zomg they're so tonned and tall and muscular (have a sense of security) and they know martial arts!

I'm vehemently sure, that I will take physics and economics in JC I think they're the coolest subjects whooo !

Wanted to join volleyball cause I like it alot but.... the juniors are all so bimbotic. They're stick thin legs often make me wonder how much muscles are embedded inside, and how can they even take the blow of an incoming volleyball. They look so pale and fragile and thin that they'll just break into smithereens when a volleyball flies towards them. & pls lorh, I am NOT a bimbo okay, like seriously. If I dont have the brain, then tell me, how do I earn $400 in one week?
& plus I dont have the looks+figure to be one too. So pls erase this wrong assumption off your mind.

I'm sorry my life was pretty boring these few weeks, havent been going out much at all. That's why you can only see picture posts and few wordy posts.

P.s. this is my last post here, switching over to bedtimewarriorz


Read Grace's most recent post and I have this strong feel of sentimental towards it.
Firstly I cant express how insanely much I would agree with Grace. You killed my passion for bio too. Yes, bio was the most appealing and my favourite subject when I was in lower sec, great deal of acknowledgement to fbsjfh. At that point of time, fbsjfh was considered as a new teacher in nanyang, and yet, fbsjfh teaches with such passion during bio lessons, it's contagious and I am influenced by her overwhelming passion too. Because so, I worked super duper hard for bio that year.

And guess what? I dont rlly believe in supernatural faith and that kind of thing. Maybe you can call me an antithesist, but this time round I'm vehement about karma. If not, tell me why would I end up in this fucking screwed up class? out of 440 students, I am the fucking unlucky 36 that ended up with her. It's alright if your lesson was just stern and boring to an extent, it's also alright if you kill me with biology quizzes with essay questions like " How does a molecule of CO2 get utilised in the leave " or smth like that. Hello, dont you know that quizzes make up a big proportion of our marks? Other classes have never heard of having eassy questions in quizzes. Fuck you. At first I was naive enough to think that you're trying to train us for exams, but you knw what, you failed terribly at that. Not only did I lose passion and interest in bio, I Hate you with a capital H, to the core.

Our class is screwed up because of you. Every single PCCG / Class contact time you must assert your assertions on these issues that we are discussing. And know what, you think youre right all the times and refuse to even take a stand on our side. If that is the case, why do you even open the discussion for the calss, and made Jomain / liwen to write down the minutes for meeting? you just siply need to write down your own PERSONAL thoughts in response to those questions. Why even bother to ask us?

I agree with Grace wholeheartedly, that I would NEVER appreciate whatever you had done for me, because there is really nothing to appreciate.. The only thing you did, was to leave behind the feeling of hatred and unjustified. However hard I work for tests or exams, I will get marked down to B4, B3. Last year, one of the common tests, they asked for functions of liver, and I wrote liver produces bile, and converts excess glucose to glycogen for storage, and later convert glycogen back into glucose for cellular respirations when the body needs it. And know what, you used your gigantic handwriting and wrote NAQ (Not Answering Question) across my answer. Mind you, it's the essay question, and because of you, 7marks are lost for no realm of reasons. Fuck you. Am i NOT answering to the question?

You suck, seriously. Tell me, what is the point of issuing students with demerit points? It is to punish those students with repetitive offences and refuse to rectify the mistakes even after counselling right? But you just issue it to us like free. Grace kenna, I kenna. I feel so unjustified, getting demerit points for telling the fucking truth to you. Walao I think I must have been so foolish back then, for choosing not to lie to you. Tell me, did I do it repetitvely? DID I?
look at 410. They have only 10 ppl present on monday if im not wrong, and tell me, are all those absentees truly sick and recuperating at home? They're not, of course. If you are their form teacher, you will issue demerit points for truancy to each and every one of the absentees, happily, no doubt.

So, really. To me, 12 demerit points doesnt make any difference to me, since whatever I do, whether major or minor, you just cant wait to grasp any chance to kill me.

Fuck you.

I hate you.

And youre totally successful in killing our itnerest in bio.

Even though Im still quite unsure of JC subj combi, there's defintiely one thing for sure, im not taking bio in JC. Dont wish to risk any chance of being taught by you again, 2 fucking long years are more than enough to suffer.


FUCK YOU.


Would you love a girl like me?

Someone who is possessive and just cant wait to write "yanghan's property" on your slippers / school compo foolscaps / on your arms, and refuse to let you erase them away.

Someone who is so dependent on you that when I cant get through your phone for half an hour I would break down and cry like a big crybaby and thought youre leaving me for good.

Someone who is so stubborn that I sometimes just refuse to agree with you even though you make more sense.

Someone who has moodswings every month and will scold and vent out my anger on you for unfathomable reasons.

Someone who woud whine non stop on the phone / smes about my excruciating period cramps.

Someone who is just so demanding for your love, wanting to keep all of you for me, and yet yearning for more freedom when you do the same.

Someone who is so playful and underaged in my actions that sometimes I asked you "to kiss me one time every five steps you walk" or "walk 3 steps forward and 2 steps back, I dont wna leave so soon".

Answer: No. That probably explains why I do not like to have MANY MANY acquiantances, prefer to have less friends, but true and good friends.

Now, all these just cant sumarise how bad I am... Rlly bad towards H.
Sigh he's one of those endangered male species on earth who are loyal and loving towards his loved ones. Who am I to deserve such an angel? Who am I.


Chinese paper was quite alright I guess. Need to improve on my time management though.
Chemistry next, and Im feeling quite relax as I just have to get 65 marks to achieve an overall A1, thanks to my brilliant chem marks in previous terms. As we checked our CA2 and SIA marks last friday, im rlly surprised that in both categories, my physics is the highest =.=
That was supposed to be one of my weakest subjects and yet I got the highest relatively to the others. 91 % for SIA and 89% for CA2. My assignments marks are of a great help!
Lowest was chinese -.- 55% for CA2. shucks if mum knows she'll kill me. (WO SHI NI MAMA, YE SHI HUA WEN LAOSHI, NI KAO DAO ZHE YANG BU XIANG HUA*&@&$@$*@&*)

Damn.
And I need to memorise chem before I go nap.
And I need to shorten the list of things Im buying from taobao, it;s getting rlly longer and longer to 34 pages long font size 11.
Taobao has quirky and cute accessories (Cello necklace, pony studs, bow studs) ! haha will try to do a spree on them too & earn my target amt by this year.
I rlly want to like have a chalet in sentosa with H (I heard it's very good, better than mainland singapore's) using the money I earned but H is still an enlistment and he doesnt have school holidays anymore, unlike me. And he has to apply for leave if we were to have chalet.
Argh wtf.
So troublesome when your guy is in army.

On a brighter note, I got szemin a phone and I feel better, and can wait to next thurs for our Sakae sushi buffet.










Oct 1 marks several meaning events.
1. China's National day if you dont know
2. Hari Raya
3. Children's Day, my day
4. Most imptly, it's YUXI'S BIRTHDAY ! !

Happy Sweet Seventeen my sweetheart :)
I dreamt of her last night, and because of that, I get a night's of undisturbed sleep till this morning. The dream was about us being in the same classroom again, in a shanghai school or smth. It was so vivid that I thought it was for real that we're in the same class again..
She told me she dreamt of us too, hugging together in the same class.
haha it's been 4 years and we remained emotionally close, even though we hardly ever chatted.
Blame it on heaven's dirty tricks that send tuyan to Australia and Yuxi one mark away from Nanyang. Tuyan got into nanyang but she chose to study abroad ):

Will we ever reunite again?

Okay, so I went to Grace's blog and found this !


Pick your birth month→
Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you→
Bold the five-ten that best apply to you→
Copy to your blog→
Tag 10 people from your friends list

1. Portia Liang
2. SZEMIN!
3. Xinyu?
4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. anyone who wants to do this :)

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention(HAHA I love attention!). Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally(Ego ahaha). Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic. Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. (Damn true la, Im rlly super afraid of cold environment and stuff) Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn. (ask h this and he'll nod his head vigorously in response)


JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood.Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.


AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.


SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.


OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.


DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.


So H and I went to Vivo for a picnic at the rofftop. Actually wasnt supposed to be a picnic, it just happened that carl's jr was flooding with people and we couldnt find a seat.
We tried taking photos together, you know those mushy kind. Cause I realised we dont have much of that kind of photos even though we've been tgt for so long alrdy.
And Im not giving up, Im going to bring my camera around everytime we go out together.

& Take millions of photos tgt



Hi the small , young, cute , and pretty yanghan.
Let me advocate this : I USED TO BE VERY FAIR AND PRETTY ONE OKAY.


Everytime momma saw the first photo, she'll recall that day when she bought the cake for me in the bakery, and I began to eat it even before she paid the moeny to the cashier.
Wow, no wonder I grew up to be so gluttonous and practically like eating everyth, well maybe except pork, chicken.

Look like a transexual here, yucks.


Momma brought me to some studio for shots and they....dressed me up in wedding costumes, chinese traditional costumes and even in such a masculine outfit and made me pose like..

See, as I grew older... I became tanner and tanner AND TANNER (AND FATTER).


Do you see the twin pink dolls behind me ? One of them has this paper cap on its head.


I made it myself for them hehhehhhe. This is how I spent my childhood. Cutting and tracing clothes and hats for the dolls on rough papers. I think I looked so cute in bangs....





Yeahyeah, Coreen is very pretty / angmoh-ish/ hot/slim / nice / long lashes big eyes.

As I grew up, I may change in appearances and character wise, but I realise one thing will remain true - that is, I love being myself!
I feel fortunate to have friends who rlly dote on me, alot.
And heaven sent me an angel who is just perfect as he is, providing me with a pillar of support and shield me with his shiny silver armour and pick me up from my fall.

Subway ytd with bitch and her bitch was love.
Our hellos and goodbyes encompasses hugs and pecks on the cheeks.
Luckily we both have oil-less smooth cheeks.

Hah.

Okay so, some of my taobao items will be arriving later (whoo!)
And I cant wait to get my hands on my Keds and Topshop pumps! and the heap of beaded bracelets and 3 picnic baskets.
As I've promised myself a entire 1 month worth of overseas shopping, I think it's time to buy gifts for those who dote / doted on me :D
I found Billabong / Roxy / Ripcurl / Volcrom / Wetseal / Alloy/ Leather jacket / Tutu Skirts / bows / bow necklaces on taobao ! and my list of websites that im going to buy is getting longer and longer....

[EDIT]
Okay what a disappointment the Keds are too huge for my feet!
And I got more bracelets than I wanted like omgish I love my uncle to bitsssssssssssssssss
[EDIT/]



Okay, eoys in 3 days' time.
Spells Doom and Death.
You guys can start saving up for a coffin for me. Pls be thoughtful and add pooh stickers on it.

Damnit. I have been slacking way too much, seriously.
Study / revision was minimal.
Probably will end up with madeline they all next year, studying the same old sec 4 syllabus again.
The big fat msg of 4.2 in term 3 did not ring an emergency bell in my brain at all.
Others are aiming for msg 1.0 and I hope for 4.0
Okay, maybe 2.0 ( I think my chinese and physics cmi for A1)

D:

Will award myself after O level higher chinese with 1 month of shopping overseas + try to earn my first $xxxx

Oh, the hits for my blogshop is pretty awesome, probably 2xxx uniques per month.
or 2xx for today :D